Jack of all trades, master of none. This is how my babai likes to refer me as. Passing class12 with just average marks is not an accomplishment. For families such as mine even 90% is not a big deal so someone as ordinary as me had nothing in store for her in the future.
I have always been a confused person. Till class11 engineering was all that occupied my mind. IIT was a dream, NIT was the second best option, Jadavpur University was the last refuge for a girl who always performed well in all class tests and terminals, a girl who got 95% in class10 boards.
As the days passed by I realized the most grievous mistake of my life. I hated science. Physics or chemistry is not what I love. It is not what I am passionate about. But what exactly was my calling I did not follow. You see, that is why I am a confused soul.
Creating,designing and drawing was something I enjoyed so may be fashion designing was an option for me.
Babai was against it. My father is a strictly emotionless and artless person. He is sort of like Oliver Barrett's father in Love Story. Fashion designing was a useless career with no scope and no future. So I was never allowed to sit for the NIFT or NID admission tests. Then I came across CLAT. Law could be a bright career choice for me. I loved fighting for a cause, expressing strongly my opinions, had a good hold of the language. It seemed a perfect and lucrative offer. However I did not qualify for the NLUs. 2 extra marks was all I needed. That hurt.
Neither was my engineering entrances good enough. IIT's dreams did not come true. NIT was far away. JU was unavailable. I am in a government aided college now with computer science engineering. Still hoping for CLAT 2013. Unaware of the trauma that I might have to face this year, the doom that might follow after the results of CLAT 2013. I will keep posting updates on the hostel life in an engineering college.
And there is one piece of advice that I would always like to give my juniors. Do what you are good at. Remember what Albert Einstein said “Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.”
